Before I get to the FOTD, I'd like to thank those of you who took the time to comment on my last post, especially regarding my lack of inspiration. I've decided that I have taken a long enough break from makeup, and that if I were to officially decide on letting go of makeup for a while, I don't know when I'll be able to pick it up again. I want to get better so badly, and the only way to do that is to keep practicing. More on that later.
As for the look, I literally spread out all my Inglot eyeshadows in front of me and looked for inspiration. As always, I was immediately drawn to blues, greens, and purples. I settled for a blue and purple look, and it wasn't until a few minutes ago that I realized I have done this color combination before. Oops.
|THIS is why I don't include shots without my glasses anymore. I|
look so weird!
-Laura Mercier hydrating primer
-Aveeno tinted moisturizer in Medium
-Cover FX Setting Powder in Light
-NARS Laguna Bronzer
-Tarte Amazonian Clay Blush in Amused
-Yves Rocher Intense Eye Crayon in Vert Marine
-Inglot eyeshadows in 413P, 426P, 441P, 362M, 388M, DS 462
-Stila Smudgepot in Kitten
-Stila eyeshadows in Kitten and Black Cat
-Lancome eyeshadow in After Dusk
-NYX JEP in Oyster
-UD 24/7 Liners in Perversion and Ransom
-L'oreal Voluminous Mascara
That's all for the look!
So now is when I'm going to be using my beauty blog for something a bit more personal. I've never formally announced it on my blog, but I'm an aspiring makeup artist. Makeup was the very first thing that really lit me on fire and has not yet burnt out, and it has been amazing for me to find something I'm truly passionate about. I've gotten a very late start on applying makeup--I didn't start wearing eyeliner and mascara regularly till I was 19! Despite my late start, I put my education towards my career as a teacher on hold so that I could pursue my dream first. I was offered a teaching position in Korea a while back. I had time to do one semester of cosmetology before I was supposed to leave, but I decided I wanted to finish and get my cosmetology license first.
Now during my second semester of my cosmetology program, I find myself frustrated and questioning myself. I want to become a professional makeup artist so bad! But the classes are focused around hair and I have learned literally nothing about makeup. I do so much research online on kits, acquiring clientele, etc but it's never enough. I'm so impatient to improve my skills at makeup application, and I become so frustrated when it doesn't turn out right. Recently, I've become even more impatient because my financial situation has taken a dip down, and I want 'real' work NOW, instead of being a full time student and working part time.
I also have a problem with caring too much about what other people think. I love blogging so very much. I feel great being able to share how I interpret and put together different colors, and just this ever growing passion in general. Over two years after I started blogging, I find myself doubting if the content I lay out there has any value or hold interest for very many people out there. I have a problem with constantly comparing myself to others and it drives me nuts.
I have these sorts of discussions with my boyfriend often. He's a lot like my therapist and cheerleader, who has a lot more faith in me than I do, and does his best to convince me that everything will turn out the way I want it to. It's a wonder he isn't tired of hearing me talk about these things over and over again.
In any case, these are some of the thoughts that run through my head quite frequently. Typing it all out has been sort of a therapy session for me. I'm doing my very best to punch those thoughts down and have a little more faith in myself. I think perhaps on each day I don't have work, I'll kidnap a poor soul and force a makeover on him/her. We'll see how that goes :)
Stay sane, my lovelies, and whatever goals you have, don't stop until you get there.